I am a day or so late in getting this one out, but the extra day of reflection was good for me. I took a little more time and spent it with some loved ones. I took my daughter to a movie and spent most of the day reflecting on just what the past year was all about.
I will not call it a bad year, nor will I call it a good year. I will leave it at being a learning year. It was a year when I look back, it is easy to point out the hard moments and several moments I wish would have been different. I find many moments that need to have their endings re-written, but then the lessons would have remained locked away with the pain. Stories that end up perfectly, do not teach us the hard lessons and those had to be learned.
So as I look back on the past year, it is a year of stepd being taken so that I can become more and more the man that I want to be. It was a year where decisions were made that allowed me to grow into the father, husband,friend, and coach that I want to be.
I attended a few too many funerals for those lost all of a sudden, but I learned how to open up my heart to those that were mourning. I learned the power of a hug when it is needed and wanted. I learned the value of laughter in mourning. I learned what it means to sit in the silence of the ashes and just know that I want to be a part of the healing process. In these moments of sudden loss, I witnessed true strength. The kind that you cannot develop on a barbell, but only through the will to stick with someone when their life gets rough.
I walked away from some of my safe places in the hopes of learning more by living in some chaos. I took that steps to try and live a larger purpose more committed to the ones I love, including myself. I stepped out of some safety and put some burdens on the ground so that I can grow. It will always be a bittersweet moment, but I know that I left my mark in those safe places and it is time for them and me to move on to new challenges and new adventures.
And through all the rough pathches, there has been growth. There has been a growth of internal strength and will. It has helped me to know that sometimes, it hurts, but you cannot stop and other times, you have to stop because the pain will just be too much to continue on.
And there have been gorious moments. Moments where you know that you were put on this planet for this moment and to meet certain people. There were days where I introduced people to my love of the barbell, the kettlebell and the odd object. I attended several certifications that helped me to learn that it is ok to be different. Just be you, do what you love and let the chips fall where they fall. Do you!
I fell in love with the puzzle that is small business. I rekindled my passion with writing and let those things come together and start to form something unique that is leading into the new year. I am excited about the risks and challenges that are coming in the new year…what does the new year look like?
No idea, but my eyes, ears and heart are open for whatever is thrown my way!